SINCE WHEN OUR CHILDHOOD GOES WRONG?

I know most of you want those sweet childhood days coming back: the day when your best friend was a teddy bear who never betrays you, the day when you were so eager to wait for your favorite cartoon starts on TV at sunday morning, the day when 'goodbye' means 'see you tomorrow', the day you raise tamagotchi animals and not real babies (?) And many things. So yeah, the point is we miss our childhood.

I love to visit my childhood days by listening and watching some shows I used to watch when I was a kid. I still listen to Ria Enes and Susan, and I love watching Sesame Street! One day I watched teletubbies in youtube to cure my childhood yearning. I love teletubbies so much I 'literally' couldn't stop watching this when I was a kid. I think many kids in my era were doing the same thing.

But then I see all those youtube comments who said they're creepy things, they're hypnotizing, they don't do anything in particular, they make people scared and all that negative stuff. Really, what is more silly than scared of teletubbies? but to think it again, that hurts a 5 years old me. You knocked your childhoold door and when it opens, you just punched it in the face.

I know you may think I'm just too much to react for this. Maybe you would say "then why the f*ck are you watching that in the first place?" or "it's internet nothing is safe" Yea I can't deny that-_-

But I realized now everything that we love when we were kids is becoming some object in our nightmare. When did you last remembered Tinky Winky is just teletubbies? When was the day you thought that your winking baby doll is just a baby doll? Since when your mind set up that your sweet doll is now a creepy cold-blooded murderer who are going to rip your organs in your sleep?

Yes, we're growing up, physically and mentally. But does it means that when we grow up, our mental is shrinking? For example, As kids we were brave to hug your teletubbies plushies to sleep and now where did it go? It practically in your mind, you concept them in it as a midnight killer. You're being skeptical about your childhood friends. Now skepticism is like a sign that you grow up.

But the problem is: we are too skeptical. We don't even believe in our childhood self. That's maybe why 90s cartoons almost never in TV anymore. Broadcasting commissions maybe think that Power Puff Girls contains violence or propagandas, CatDog contains pornography or racist message or whatever. That's how adult see.

When you see a kid's cartoons with your adult mind, all you can see is just a negative things like I've just said above. But what kids can see in a cold-blooded murderer they watched? They see Barney and Friends. What kids can see in a cartoonized illuminati hidden message? They see Spongebob Squarepants. What kids can see in that cartoons they watched? They see cartoons. They are not like us. So when they know that their favorite TV shows are banned because it contains violence or else, what can they say?

I think our mind has been politicized by adult perceptions that involve your favorite childhood things as an antagonist, like in horror movies. I mean, how come your baby doll you always hug played role as a midget scary murderer who will kill and chase you? And does it funny when you look into Dipsy's eyes and you just scared? And since when, for the love of God, cartoons that we knew bring hateful propagandas? I live my childhood watching teletubbies, baby einstein, barney and friends, etc and I grow up normal!!! I believe everyone in my generation admit it too. You shouldn't pressing kids to not watching cartoons because of our own paranoia.

A clown is just a clown when you think it's a clown, so does other things. What we think suggest a life around us and if you keep being scared like that, it will just make your childhood movies become horror. Maybe we don't have to give much meaning to a little things (yes I stole this quote from Ted Mosby).

Remember when we were kid, we couldn't wait to grow up? And now you grew up and you just betray your childhood like that. You have to learn to respect of what you decided. Your childhood always respect your adult life, then respect it back. How? By not betraying your decision you made when you were kid because those are things that made you stand right now.

Thank you for reading this useless thing lol sorry for my bad english.