Fear of Being in Happiness

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I got two little friends. their name is Happiness and Fear

Happiness is a big sister. She's energetic and lovable, and likes to play a lot. She's full of curiosity and want to learn everything. Aside of her hectic personality, she's taking care of her smaller brother, Fear.

Fear is a small lap boy. He's smart and like books, he's also clingy and loves his big sister so much. Because he's small and clingy, Happiness likes to lift him up and give him a piggy ride, to mostly EVERYWHERE. Yes, Fear loves piggybacks so much.

Happiness protects Fear so much, she protects him very well that she's only introducing Fear for her closest friend. Like his name, Fear sometimes scare Happiness's friends away. "It's ok Fear, you'll learn to blend in" said Happiness toooo many times.

Sometimes happiness has a back pain because she lifts Fear too often. But everytime Happiness sit him down, Fear won't let go. He got so much what ifs, that make Happiness thinks and somehow agrees with what he said.

In a time, Happiness wants to see how if she left Fear when she goes to take a walk alone.  She lets Fear sleep first and carefully put him on a bed. Yep, Fear is asleep, time to go for a walk!

Happiness can feel her back pain is slowly disappear when she doesn't piggybacks Fear. Hmm, is it how it feels not to have back pain?

She starts walking, and walking,

and then tried running...

and then it rains, she starts dancing and singing, she steps on a water on the streets,

she feels the breeze and cold. She feels alive, then she comes to her friends....

"Hey guys, I--"

Then she sees ALL of her friends, in grief.

One of her friend having a serious disease, ones losing their beloved, ones become so depressed. Everyone, everyone are in grief.

"Why..." Happiness groaned "Why are all my friend in trouble?"

"Am I too ignorant to my friends? How long have I been dancing in the rain until I don't know my friends are all in grief?

"Does it always be like this everytime I took Fear away?"

She can't do anything, she only feels guilty to be who she is when her friends need piggyback too. She feels it's not right, she feels...selfish.

Right just when Happiness embraced herself in a ocean of guilt, she feels something on her feet. It was Fear, trying to ask for a lift.

"You should've never take me away, sister. Being too much of yourself is dangerous. I'll keep you sane"